Happy Eid Mubarak

 Wishing you Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf zahir dan batin :)

Workloads

Hi again.

I'm in tense with work. Tension nak siapkan on time. Due on 31st January 2020. I have every bit of regret for the time I did not use to do the Lampiran M4. okay so this blog going to be a bit of a diary. But i hope this is not boring or became too emotionally expressed. Just wanna release my tension by writing it out. i hope to be more like a journal. Hoping people wont read this blog. and worst judge. i mean no harm. at all.

So.. did i really wasted my time on not doing this early? i did use the time to do work instead of playing, mind my own things, or surfing my phone. somehow time just envied me. i realized i took longer time doing things and i usually have careless mistakes, but hey, how could people do work very focused and accurate? i seldom had those, and im jealous of people who always produces work in such way. do i really wasted time? i dont think so. did i not focused? 30 % yes but did ive been delusional? perhaps. how could time passes me by quietly and fast?

if people must know. my thinking rate right now, the normal rate, is slow. to some people. i thought it would go well when time passes by. but the more im with me. the more it is I am. amende aku cakap ni. well alot of people would say, mine is slow. blurred. as they say. how im supposed to explain that. people expect me to fasten it. but i couldnt. the more i fasten it, the more chaos its going to be. im accepting my mind as what it is. once i tried putting effort of not being blurry, not being delayed, i usually facing carelessness again. if im taking times, sweet time, the person thinks im lazy or wasting time. well im not. how could explain this thing about my mind. when i tried to fasten it, i got nervous and anxious. im afraid of the mistakes i would made. then people judged my mind were too fast, crazy to be thinking affirmly. then how is my mind supposed to be? i dont understand. i'd literally just explain how lembab i am. hmm. i guess the one thing i could do, is try my best. my very best, hope for its to produce the best. hope it could affect the best, and the best it would be.

Wrecking Balls

Dear Blog,

How are you? Today I'm taking a peep at ya. Don't know what write yet. I'll see you soon.

Is this love?

I wish I'm a poet so I could tell my story not-straightforwardly.

Promotion and increment

Yesterday is a special day whereby I received a letter of promotion for the first time. Its not a big promotion but it surely a stepping stone for me as I only been an experienced worker for one year and 6 months. I 've been expecting more but I have forgotten that Im still new and I may not deserve more than that. Atleast for now. Maybe because i have felt the overloaded work.

My company is considered the best company to work with based on my own observations and few of my experienced colleague. One of the reason is flexibility of working hours has been envied by many. Do you know how relax it is to come work late? Hahaha but we must complete our working hours and if you wanna replace back, replace back somewhere in the same month. The only trick is whether we could managed our task in time. Pandai pandai la demo.

My new job tasks haven't been discuss yet. hopefully i would do just as great as before and better plus more than what I should just done. The goal for this year!
This promotion has taken me by shock because i didnt expect to have a promotion for the year 2018 and since that...


Will continue later...

Guidance

The shivers when Allah answers questions in our mind through the Quran is very overwhelming, indescribable indeed. Its like we can feel how closely he is to us. Listening, stay beside us, through the goods and the bad too. Waiting for us to returned and confide to him whenever we feeling down, Because deep down he knows we always rely on Him. Even sometimes we overwrought. He waits.

2019

Its 2019 and I'm going to be 25 real soon. How fast time flies. Surprisingly today, I end up being here. Last post was in 2017. Wow what happened to 2018?!

I hope whoever reading this is in good health and probably cringed out reading old post of mine. Ha ha ha. I do miss writing. I miss it so much. Able to tell stories I'm excited about, share whatever came through my mind. Sometimes I have this so called 'train of thought' stopped by and unload some good stuff. But I often lazy, and not finding time or even have the thought of blogging any or even jot it down in a book. Since there are so many social medias which I could update quicker and in more convenient way, I keep on choosing them. Maybe I should start writing again. I know I said this million time. Lol.

I wonder what this 25 year old brain could express afterwards.